who cares

just another brain::dump. don’t try to understand or to interpret things. if you’re not THE ONE you will most likely not understand. i’m just posting this to get it out of my mind.

so here I am. half past 3 in the morning. flicking a fag. watching the smoke dancing in the pale light of the screen. enjoying a Glenmorangie.

tomorrow is Christmas Eve.

too much time to think. but why is my life so complicated right now? is it just me who’s thinking too much – making my life complicated myself?

„That’s me in the corner, losing my religion…“

maybe it’s just that everybody around me is in a christmas mood and i am not. maybe it is because the world is turning. i don’t know. but i want to know. i want to understand.

„Rest. The answers will come…“